High Expectations

People in general, say 'you can’t have everything in life' They say if a girl is pretty she must be dumb. If someone has a lot of money probably they have all this because this someone was just lucky. Or a nice person would probably have said, all this because he/she scarified his/her life just to be rich so for sure he/she is unhappy in life. You know what that say 'money does not buy happiness'. And my favorite one for sure this person is a bad person.  People don't believe you can have it all. You always have to choose and sacrifice one thing to have the other.  

For example, one needs to choose a private life or to have a great career, or maybe never eat a favorite ice cream again to have a nice figure.

There is no way you can have these things at same time. 

Those people usually are the people who obviously don't have it all, so this got me thinking if this is really true? 

Of course the idea of having “everything” is very individual.

I started to think about people who 'do have it all' or at least they seem to, like Angelina Jolie or Bill Gates. Of course we don’t know for sure if they are happy but, let's be honest, they don't look unhappy either. 

Perhaps saying that you can't have everything in life is just an excuse.  Excuses for people who are not happy in life, because they are too lazy to change something.

Of course there are things which we can’t change like some serious health problem, or the way we look. Well it is not entirely true with look considering the option we have now (plastic surgery) but  for the sake of the argument lets say we can’t change this.  Although, I think all the rest, we can make it happen. In fact, I want everything.

I want it all! I want to have a great career, and this amazing house I've always dreamed about. I want to have time to help animals and travel around the world, and of course I want to have a great relationship. Relationship with this perfect man, at least, perfect for me, who will be there for me to catch me when I fall. I am sure, I could think about some more stuff that I want but,

is it possible that I expect too much from life?

For a minute, I thought maybe I should lower my standards?

After some time of thinking I decided I cannot lower my standards. First of all, we have only one life to live. So I said to myself that I will do whatever it takes to have everything I want from life. Because I am not quite ready to accept the fact that I can’t have it all.

At the end of the day, whatever will happens in my life, I will not regret any day.  I will either make it happen or I will die trying

Little Girl And The Big City

New York city  is an easy city to fell in love with. The City that has so much to offer, the city full of opportunities.

They say “The city that never sleeps” - sushi in the middle of the night? There it is. Hairdresser at 2:00 AM, shops,pharmacy open 24 hours or maybe even a manicure at 6:00 AM

You can get anything, anytime.  

I had this chance to spend some time here, so is not my last post about this amazing city.

So today I decided to share some of my observations about NYC.

#New Yorkers are people who don't care..

If you live in NYC, you have seen and heard pretty much everything so New Yorkers are used to ignoring things. 

Or maybe they are just too busy to see what is going on?

I have been in situation where men tried to kill himself jumping in from of a subway train. Most people in this  situation will  freeze with shock. What did i see? some people started taking pictures but most of them started to leave the train station hurrying to get a new train.

I guess they were disappointed that this train will be no longer in use. 

In New York people ask you all the time "howareyah"? It really does not matter if they just met you or that they known you for years.

You might think it is because they really want to know how are you doing. Well don't be surprised at the response you would get if answered sort of “ well could be better ,I just lost my job and my wife wants to divorce me, How about you?” Their answer will be, “ good, good, I am great too”  You might think this is a joke, but I wouldn't be so sure about that. ;-)

#Life expense

My first thought is what is the most expensive thing here?A place to live, of course. Not only to buy but even renting is not cheap. 

Price depends on the area of in the city you. Not a long time ago Manhattan was the most expensive place to rent or buy an apartment but things started to change and now also Brooklyn started to increase prices. Renting a studio apartment in a nice neighborhood is around $3000 a month. A cheaper option is to rent a room but don’t be surprised if the price doesn't go much lower than a thousand dollars per month. 

The good news is that if you know where to go the rest of living can be quite cheep:-) You can find, shops like a  lot-less or a dollar store ,best sales on days like the Black Friday and one of the best pizzas I have ever had wasn't in Italy but here in manhattan just one dollar per slice.

So there is no need to worry. There are plenty of ways to save money. If somehow you will run out of money don't worry. You can always try to pick up some by singing/dancing/doing a show or just asking for money on subways station. Here it is quite popular way to make money  this way, but keep in mind there is a lot of competition ;-) 

#Friendship

In city like Manhattan is very easy to get to meet people. I have never been asked for my phone number  as often in my life as on my short stay in NYC. Finding a date for Friday night is not a big deal but I realized that finding a friendship is.

Why? I don't really know,  maybe it is because there are so many cultures that is it really hard to find someone who will really understand us. Maybe because of the lifestyle the locals. People are “ too busy ” or maybe it is because a city like this offers so many options and choices that it makes it hard to stick to just one? One thing I know for sure, it is hard to be here alone, but not so hard to be lonely.

He Will Regret..

When your relationship is ending it is never easy. No matter who initiated the break up or what reason.
 It is was  always hard. It is even harder when you split up with man you know you want to marry.

We often after a split up promise to ourself that the man will regret . It becomes our next goal.

So we starts to take care of ourself,we get a new hairstyle ,start yoga ,read more books, start to put on high heels more often and get facials every week. 

We have this kind of belief that if we become better some how the man will start love us again.

But what if he doesn't ?

In fact, I think he probably will not.

Let’s face it, if someone does not love you any more, he will not start loving you again, only because you lost some weight or because you start going too rock concerts. 

It is easy to change yourself for someone you love but is it worth it?

I think it is good to make this kind of goal “he will regret” and use all this power we got, to become better.

At the beginning it will be all for him but after some time, it will be all for me

At the end of the day no matter what was the reason we started with, we decided to become better and that is what really counts.

Recently I learned an important lesson before you fall in love with someone you should fall in love with yourself first.
So if the next time another relationship will fall apart, I will not be the kind of girl who will try to fix it no matter what it take. 

I will sit down analyze and learn the lessons ,because I will still have faith. Faith in myself that I will find someone who will know that I am the one and will love me till the end.  

"The most exciting and challenging significant relationship of all is this one you have with yourself. And if you find someone to love the "you” you love well that’s just fabulous"

Beginning Is Never Easy..

I have been searching for a long time to see who I really am. Where in the world is my place, where is my home? 

There was a time in my life when I thought I found myself, I found my home.

I wanted so much to belong to one place that even if it didn't feel quite right, I still decided to stick to it.

Something went wrong and for some reason I felt homeless again. So I took a plane and flew away. 

It always feels good when I am in the air. It feels like freedom. Like me again. 

So I took a trip to the USA.

It was quite an adventure even if most of the time I spent in NYC I had the chance to see some other states too.

It was quite a journey. I had some amazing moments and some difficult times too. Along the way I learned a lot, like how to pack and travel smart, but most of all I have been learning about myself. Who I am and who I want to be. 

Once I had a thought… I was looking  at this beautiful Grand Canyon in Arizona. I felt like I was on top of the world like I was  a citizen of the world and it hit me!  There was nobody with me. No one to share this beautiful moment with me. So instead of being happy I ended up feeling sad. 

I decided I would write a blog so that I would never feel alone on my journey. I would love to share my experience with people who love adventure. Who are looking for something more in life. Who don't want to be tamed - just like me.

"Maybe some woman aren't meant to be tamed. Maybe they need to run free until they find someone just as wild to run with."

-Carry Bradshaw