I remember like yesterday the time when I was ten or maybe eleven years old; I was sitting at home and thinking how amazing will be when I grow up.
I couldn't imagine how I will look like and how my life is going to be. But somehow I was sure - it will be better. I just knew one thing, I want to grow up. I used to imagine that I can do whatever I want. Play as much as I want; say whatever I want; I will not need to listen to anyone except myself. In fact, there would be no limits for me because I am mature...
Now it happened. I am an adult (at least this is what my ID says…) And things seem to look entirely different from those what I imagined when I was a teenager. In fact, it is opposite: Maybe I can say what I want, but then I know that is not always appropriate, not always politically correct and not always they should be spoken... Maybe I can do what I want, but the truth is: whatever I have done I always ended up thinking about it how others will perceive it, or this question always in my had asking "right or wrong?"
And if we are talking about this "no limits bullshit"? Well, there are millions of limits.
Let's face it: we are always in control of something or someone: money, time, religion, politics, parents, partners, children, our habits and even our boundaries.
I cannot say I don't like to be grown up; I love it! However, sometimes I am getting tired. I am exhausted when I have to put 'Happy Eve' face when I am far from happiness. I am sick of watching carefully which words I have to use to ensure that I do not hurt someone's feelings, or I will not upset him or her. I am not happy that I have to pretend.
It was a time when for a moment I thought that I do not need to, but then I realized that when I am real I am not that funny, and I do not have many people around me.
Family,maybe this three friends. Honestly, it is not so much.
I am sure some of you would think; it is better to have those three real friends around you than hundreds fake, but is it? Really?
Even, if we can be real in our private life I wouldn't be so sure if this „ be real thing” will work out so good for the school, job, social life, in fact, i am pretty sure most of us are pretending in that kind of environment.
There is a saying that 'Life is a game'.
This game isn't fair, most of us have different start and even different level of difficulty, but I am pretty sure that we all have the same end…
You have to play, whether you like it or no.
The key for the players is to get to know the rules of the game.
The problem begins when you realize no one will teach you how to play, even if you will be the lucky one and others would like to help you "how to play" still there are the things which you must figure it out on your own.
Wrong move and the game can over before it started, but if somehow you manage to learn the concept then the real fun begins…
Who doesn't like to play from time to time?
